Yes yes, finally. Exam over, holidays over. Sch started, today is 3rd day. I am losing my motivation already, I think I over-enjoyed my holiday, losed the momentum, hard to start the engine again. Tonight i practically, slacked the night away. Some changes I need to adapt fast, for example no more looking forward to meet babe after school. This made school less looking-forward-to-go. Timetable no longer requires me to wake up at 7 almost everyday, but a drag to 5.30pm almost everyday too. Frame shift adaptation is required. If thats the case, why ain I in hall? Home is no longer functional for me. Was planning to enforce some discipline to stay in lib after school till, but dinner would burn a pocket in a almost burned out pocket.

Modules this semester for me are more imtimidating, maybe because more math and chemistry are invovled, and I feel that I am at a disadvantage compared to A lvl chem, n E/F maths JC counterparts. This was further re-emphasize in last semester Biostats which i see myself B+ing it when I got a Dist in polytechnique. Clearly the Maths standard is higher, an area I find poly students to be more lacking. The same applies for Chem.

Another difference this semester is lectures are now completed within monday and tuesday compared to the previous semester where it stretch over the week. This will definately change my study plan and time-management. The last and most important difference is, modules this sem, from what I observed so far, does not follow any particular textbook closely. This make reading up more difficult as material seems to spread across many different books. This eventually discourage reading up.

Most importantly, have to be discipline. Complacency might interfer with this. If discipline = k X motivation / complacency, k is a constant, to maintain a high discipline, i have to keep my motivation up, and complacency down. Writing it down and blogging it out is a form of annoucement, and when making a such commitment, its a stronger form of reminder I give myself compared to just going it through my head.

Road ahead is not easy, but to suceed i have to stay focus. For a better future, for a better person. I must be who I must be.

Hui jie once enlighten me: "What is the most successful cell? - Cancer"
It makes me think, Cancer is successful in a sense that it is immortal, it can maximise its full potential with no control. So what makes it sucessful? First it must break away from neighbouring cell, to metasize, to elimate the space restriction it is subjected to. Next it needs to divide uncontrollably.

If we apply this to life, its pretty much the same. To be like a cancer cell, a sucessful individual, one must break away from the norm, the surrounding, any other restriction that is withholding you. The 2nd factor is uncontrolled source of motivation to do well, endless source, no matter what others critic, how many times you failed, if you are just motivated uncontrollably, one day you will be as successful as a metasized tumor. Able to adapt to anywhere they go with no restriction, endless source of motivation, achieving its maximal potential, fullfilling self actualization. Of course such person would be successful as a individual, but like a cancerous tumor, the individual will be considered as a seperate entity from the rest of the body. Such cell/individual will be rejected by the general as a outcast, but we all know, they are immortal.